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the fabric of our perceptions, our thinking and our sense of self, that we take them
completely for granted.4 As we discuss how coercive control relies on dominance and
submission, we will see how easily this view of woman as an inferior being plays into
authoritarian environments.
“Feminine” Sources of Knowledge and Power
Women‟s unique sources of power and creativity have been maligned and denigrated over
the centuries. Our closeness to the rhythms of nature through sexuality and the
reproductive potential of our bodies have been turned against us, cited as an excuse for our
absence from the spheres of cultural achievement long dominated by men. In our group the
denigration of the emotions and the common perception of the body as a major block to
enlightened behavior played roles of paramount importance. The body and sexuality, anger
and intuition were especially controlled and devalued, effectively silencing the voice that
emerges when we have full access to these aspects of ourselves.
Sexuality and the body. Being present to each moment was the ostensible raison d’être of
the community. Unfortunately, presence, as we learned it, included but minimal attention to
the body. Rather, we learned mainly a mental operation born of “divided attention.” Divided
attention, or non-identification, was the heart of the practices that sustained and united the
community. This practice produced evocative altered states, but also often effected a split
from the body. This dissociative split encouraged us to believe that we were conquering our
pain, suffering, and difficult emotions by passing into more exalted states of consciousness.
In fact, we systematically numbed ourselves to body sensations by this practice. Most of us
adhered to typically Judeo-Christian attitudes about bodily impulses as enemies to be
conquered in the quest for enlightenment thus, we isolated ourselves from those instinctual
sources integral to the embodied, awakened heart and mind. We believe this may be
especially true for women in whom body and mind connections are stronger because of our
predominant role in bringing in the next generation.
As usual in such groups, myriad exercises surrounded sexuality. As mentioned earlier, sex
outside marriage was prohibited. Though not everyone complied, marriage was strongly
recommended for those in the “inner circle” others might pursue clandestine escapades but
were always subject to being turned in. Homosexuality was forbidden until recently. Women
were often viewed as sexual predators whose activity had to be monitored. Dowdy richness
--Victorian cameos, Gucci scarves, little stacked heels, midcalf straight skirts --was the
preferred norm for years, a 50-year-old matronly look was rewarded and encouraged.
Meanwhile, charges of the misuse of sex were leveled at those who wore short dresses,
tight blouses, laughed too loudly, or flirted.
It gradually came out that the leader was involved in an ongoing series of sexual encounters
with young male devotees. Amazingly, in this highly controlled environment, it was
exceedingly difficult for this information to be taken in. Let us remember that coercive
control includes thought control. The implications of the leader‟s involvement with his
followers were simply not permitted to take hold in the minds of those of us who were
captive to his worldview. Those outside a group always want to know: how did we manage
this? Some excused it by saying the leader was still evolving, that sex was the last obstacle
that he was working out through these loving relations with his followers.
More importantly, in certain states of consciousness, which we had learned to create in
ourselves through various meditative practices, it is possible to experience the three-
dimensional world of everyday reality as unreal, as maya, an illusion, or “a play.” In these
states of mind, the dreamlike quality of everyday life becomes apparent. Along with these
perceptions comes the sense of a certain delightful connectedness to everything, sometimes
an infusion of love or beauty or sweetness accompanies these prayerful states of mind. We
do not believe these states of mind are so different from the results of contemplative
the fabric of our perceptions, our thinking and our sense of self, that we take them
completely for granted.4 As we discuss how coercive control relies on dominance and
submission, we will see how easily this view of woman as an inferior being plays into
authoritarian environments.
“Feminine” Sources of Knowledge and Power
Women‟s unique sources of power and creativity have been maligned and denigrated over
the centuries. Our closeness to the rhythms of nature through sexuality and the
reproductive potential of our bodies have been turned against us, cited as an excuse for our
absence from the spheres of cultural achievement long dominated by men. In our group the
denigration of the emotions and the common perception of the body as a major block to
enlightened behavior played roles of paramount importance. The body and sexuality, anger
and intuition were especially controlled and devalued, effectively silencing the voice that
emerges when we have full access to these aspects of ourselves.
Sexuality and the body. Being present to each moment was the ostensible raison d’être of
the community. Unfortunately, presence, as we learned it, included but minimal attention to
the body. Rather, we learned mainly a mental operation born of “divided attention.” Divided
attention, or non-identification, was the heart of the practices that sustained and united the
community. This practice produced evocative altered states, but also often effected a split
from the body. This dissociative split encouraged us to believe that we were conquering our
pain, suffering, and difficult emotions by passing into more exalted states of consciousness.
In fact, we systematically numbed ourselves to body sensations by this practice. Most of us
adhered to typically Judeo-Christian attitudes about bodily impulses as enemies to be
conquered in the quest for enlightenment thus, we isolated ourselves from those instinctual
sources integral to the embodied, awakened heart and mind. We believe this may be
especially true for women in whom body and mind connections are stronger because of our
predominant role in bringing in the next generation.
As usual in such groups, myriad exercises surrounded sexuality. As mentioned earlier, sex
outside marriage was prohibited. Though not everyone complied, marriage was strongly
recommended for those in the “inner circle” others might pursue clandestine escapades but
were always subject to being turned in. Homosexuality was forbidden until recently. Women
were often viewed as sexual predators whose activity had to be monitored. Dowdy richness
--Victorian cameos, Gucci scarves, little stacked heels, midcalf straight skirts --was the
preferred norm for years, a 50-year-old matronly look was rewarded and encouraged.
Meanwhile, charges of the misuse of sex were leveled at those who wore short dresses,
tight blouses, laughed too loudly, or flirted.
It gradually came out that the leader was involved in an ongoing series of sexual encounters
with young male devotees. Amazingly, in this highly controlled environment, it was
exceedingly difficult for this information to be taken in. Let us remember that coercive
control includes thought control. The implications of the leader‟s involvement with his
followers were simply not permitted to take hold in the minds of those of us who were
captive to his worldview. Those outside a group always want to know: how did we manage
this? Some excused it by saying the leader was still evolving, that sex was the last obstacle
that he was working out through these loving relations with his followers.
More importantly, in certain states of consciousness, which we had learned to create in
ourselves through various meditative practices, it is possible to experience the three-
dimensional world of everyday reality as unreal, as maya, an illusion, or “a play.” In these
states of mind, the dreamlike quality of everyday life becomes apparent. Along with these
perceptions comes the sense of a certain delightful connectedness to everything, sometimes
an infusion of love or beauty or sweetness accompanies these prayerful states of mind. We
do not believe these states of mind are so different from the results of contemplative
