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resulted in a prolonged period of continued self-disclosure from both Ken and Curt. Curt
continued to explain the limitations of the deprogrammers, especially as they are influenced
by a cultist who is lying. Curt was confronting the issue of honesty head on. By lying, Ken
was first and foremost being dishonest with himself, and being dishonest with the
deprogrammers was not the main point: “We can't deprogram you, you do that yourself, all
we can do is provide you with some reference points and support.. You have to be honest
with yourself.' Ken recalled to Curt that when Krishnas get caught stealing or lying, they call
it religious persecution. Curt continued to plead his case for honesty. He and Ken talked
about how difficult it is to leave on one's own. It‟s done, Curt noted, but it‟s tough because
the best way to sort through everything is to express it, to test it out against what other
people say. They then discussed a lawsuit against ISKCON in California, and how ISKCON
shifted assets out of that state and cried poverty in order to avoid paying the $32 million
judgment against them. They discussed the power struggles between various gurus. Curt
asked Ken to point out one absolute leader in history who had had absolute power and was
not corrupted by it. Ken, of course, could not. They then talked about Ted Patrick, his good
and his bad points. Curt contrasted Patrick's style with his own: “He [Patrick] worked on
people's emotions ...he didn't approach it from an informational standpoint [as does Curt].”
Returning to the power struggles within ISKCON, Curt commented on how the rivalries
between gurus got started, how when Prabhupada appointed these .pure disciples' they had
trouble getting respect from fellow gurus, because their fellow gurus all knew about each
others' sins and weaknesses (e.g., using coffee and other intoxicants, using profanity, etc.).
Ken initially defended the strange Krishna notion that as one becomes spiritually “purer,
one is able to indulge in more “sins” because the sin cannot touch and undo the pure
devotee. “Some things the disciples can't do (the gurus can],” he said. Curt‟s response was
nonchalant. “Well, yeah, there's a double-standard. Ken: “Yeah, I kind of picked up on that,
too.” Ken then talked about some of the homosexual improprieties he had witnessed, which
he spontaneously interpreted as running away from sexual identity issues.
Request to stop chanting: The first day ends. Curt, Brian, and Ken talked for almost two
hours more, reviewing some of what had been said already, and going over more material
from Curt's loose-leaf book. At about 1:39 a.m., the need for sleep seemed too strong to
deny any longer, and the deprogrammers stated they would need to go to bed. Before
leaving, Curt made his first direct suggestion to Ken. “I wanted to suggest something, don't
expect you to necessarily go along with it, but why don't you give no chanting [in the
morning) a shot. I‟ll give you a reason in the morning why. While you're here, give it a
shot.” Curt then reminded Ken of Mary's statements that chanting “shuts down the primary
and opens up the secondary thought processes.” Ken said he would consider it.
It seemed like Ken could continue forever. When he finally announced his own intention to
go to sleep, I went back downstairs. Risa was still up, dressed in a nightgown and robe.
Apparently, she was going to sleep over. I had not even thought about where I would sleep,
and I did not bring a change of clothes. I decided, however, to sleep over as well. Risa and I
went downstairs into the basement. The basement was large, consisting of three open
areas that, together, constituted a “U” shape. It was filled with old furniture, games (e.g.,
ping-pong), posters and old stereo equipment. To the right a mattress and beddings had
been laid out this was where Risa slept. Around the bend to the left were an old chair, two
inexpensive couches, a coffee table and a large trunk all the way to the left. Behind this
trunk was a box spring with a mattress and some beddings on it. I decided to try the box
spring out. The two couches would later serve as bedding for one or the other security men.
I went over and talked to Risa a bit. She was worried and hopeful at the same time, and
she shared these feelings. She told me she did not know how she would be able to get to
sleep she felt very agitated. I could sense how strongly she felt about the deprogramming,
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how much hope she placed in it. I felt pulled to express confidence in Curt and in the whole
process. We said good-night and I went over to my “bed.”
The Second Day: Morning
Sandy and Ken alone. I had great difficulty sleeping that first night, in part because of my
own excitement and in part because the basement was very musty and I have a mild allergy
to mold in the air. I slept somewhat fitfully, waking up every half hour or so. I tried the
couches, and slept for about one more hour. When I awoke, George was asleep in the couch
across from me. I fell back asleep, but continued to awake repeatedly. Shortly after sunrise,
I gave up and walked back upstairs. It was almost 7:00 a.m. I went into the den and spent
the next hour organizing my notes, and putting number stickers on yesterday's tapes. The
Epsteins bid me hello and good-by in rapid succession as they came downstairs on their way
out to their respective jobs.
I then went upstairs to check on everyone else. It was toward the end of Jim's shift and he
was seated at the top of the stairs, reading a Western novel. After whispering hello, Jim told
me it had been a quiet, uneventful night. I asked him if I could get him anything
downstairs, and he asked for coffee. I poured cups for us both and went back upstairs. Jim
explained to me that the security men took turns, working in four-hour shifts, sitting guard
on the second floor spot just outside Ken's room. Sandy was sleeping on the floor of Ken's
room in his sleeping bag. Curt and Brian were sleeping in Beth‟s room. Beth in turn slept in
what used to be Daniel's room. Beth's bedroom was bigger, and thus was ceded to the
deprogrammers. At 8:34 a.m. Ken woke up. Sandy must have been sleeping lightly, as he
woke up immediately after Ken. I walked into the room. Ken was seated up on his bed, in
his now “usual” spot, and he and Sandy were talking about whether senses are good or bad,
and the irony of an overemphasis on “bad” sensation Sandy: “If I tell you, „don't think about
elephants,‟ what do you think of? ...Cults have to get you into a position where you no
longer look back or your past experience to make a judgment.” He continued, “My past
experiences before I got involved with the movement came from an impure nature ...
[according to the cult] ...so the only reference or framework. I have that is dependable is
the framework from within the guru, the doctrine he gave. So I have to try to get
everything lined up with that doctrine.” In contrast to the previous evening, Ken now
seemed to relate to Sandy”., recounting of his own cult experiences. Ken began relating
more of his own experience, concentrating on the role of guilt. Sandy underscored how that
philosophy is different from the practice, using examples. Ken replied with personal
examples of how he suppressed his doubts. Ken and Sandy talked at length.
Until now, Sandy had yielded to Curt‟s expertise in critiquing ISKCON. This morning,
however, his own knowledge of the Krishnas became more obvious as he related his
experiences in his shepherding cult to some of what Ken had disclosed, as well as to stories
from other former Krishnas. Ken appeared a bit uncomfortable now. Sandy asked him what
was wrong. As it turned out Ken wanted to use the bathroom. Sandy said, “Of course, go
ahead,” and Ken went to the bathroom next to his room, while Sandy waited and listened
carefully right outside the door. To the best of anyone's knowledge, Ken had not gotten up
to chant his rounds, and was not starting to do so now. Today, however, nobody would
comment on this change in Ken's behavior.
When Ken returned, he and Sandy continued talking. It was now 10:00 am., and with the
exception of Jim, Sandy, Ken, and myself, everyone else remained asleep. Sandy began to
confront Ken a little he seemed to be trying to push an overt denouncement of
Prabhupada. Ken would not give in so easily, and he met Sandy's criticisms of the cult‟s
doctrines with a stance of “this is what Prabhupada says, now you disprove it.” The two
entered into a long discussion of the historical accuracy of the Bible, and the talk remained
very cordial and low-key. From biblical accuracy, Ken and Sandy veered off into a discussion
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