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and pastoral ministry. He hid the simplicity and depth of his faith under the austere
appearance of a rigid professor, indifferent to both sympathy and success. Nevertheless, his
example and the straightforwardness of his words earned him the esteem of Newman, who
knew how to look beyond the man‘s timidity (Apologia 16).
In religion, Rev. Mayers was a convinced supporter of Evangelicalism. The essence of the
Evangelical stream then within the Anglican Communion was to bring souls to the purity and
rigorous simplicity of faith. This movement was conceived more as an experience of assured
salvation than as an adhesion to dogmas. From this came the importance attributed to
conversion and new birth, giving to each one the certainty of his own salvation experienced
through the grace of Jesus Christ. Accompanying this conversion was an austere morality
that added a rigid code of conduct to the piety of Evangelicals (17-18).
Instead of being sent to a college like Newman, Unamuno at age 14 found his tutors in
reading the only books available to him in the library of his father: the philosophers Balmes
and Donoso. Nonetheless, this limited collection opened his mind to a whole new world of
philosophy.
Por Balmes me enteré de que había un Kant, un Descartes, un Hegel. Apenas
entendí yo palabra de su Filosofía fundamental – esa obra tan endeble entre
las endebles otras balmesianas --,y, sin embargo, con un ahínco grande, el
ahínco mismo que aplicado después a la gimnasia regeneró mi cuerpo, me
empeñé en leerla entera y la leí. (Recuerdos 105)
Through Balmes I learnt there was a Kant, a Descartes, a Hegel. I barely
understood a word of their fundamental Philosophy – that feeble work among
other feeble works of Balmes --,and, nonetheless, with great effort, the same
effort later applied to my body at the gymnasium, I pledged to read it all, and
I did.
Those days for Unamuno were a combination of emotional mysticism and philosophical
searching. Deeply emotional and intellectually curious, the stage was set for a philosophy of
life linking heart and head, will and imagination. Sometimes, he cried without an
explanation on others, he would fall sleep with a book in his hands (104).
The results were different for both teenagers, but with amazing similarities. In Newman's
case, the new birth of conversion portrayed a conviction of a singular predestination from
God, acquired by a strong effort of the will and imagination. John Henry experienced the
certainty of God‘s pardon in a stirring intuition, thought necessary to reach the certitude
that Christ had redeemed him from sin. This proof was as absolute and infallible as the fact
of one‘s ―own hands and feet‖ (Apologia 16). So, yielding to a flood of emotions, his heart
let itself go in a touching avowal of gratitude and love for his God who had filled it from his
most bountiful mercy. The barrenness of moral formalism and the skepticism of rationalism
seem to have been answered by a personal call by God towards emotional piety. How
objective was Newman's conversion to this ardent devotion? Was this God neither that of
the philosophers nor that of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, but rather the God of Newman's
own emotional needs?
In the Apologia, Newman stated the circumstances of his conversion and his debt to Rev.
Mayers. As to the objective content of his conversion, we notice that it was not a mere
subjective certainty of conversion. The latter would involve the vicious circle of subjectivity,
with certitude based on certitude. Rather Newman noticed a great change of thought, rather
than emotion:
When I was fifteen, a great change of thought took place in me. I fell under
the influence of a definite Creed, and received into my intellect impressions of
dogma ...I neither recollect the title nor the contents, except one doctrine,
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which I do not include among those which I believe to have come from a
divine source, viz., the doctrine of final perseverance. (16)
In Unamuno's life, the search for the eternal led to changes in his ideas, perhaps a seed of
his future assertion of his right to contradict himself.
Enamorábame de lo último que leía, estimando hoy verdadero lo que ayer
absurdo consumíame un ansia devoradora de esclarecer los eternos
problemas sentíame peloteado de unas ideas en otras, y este continuo
vaivén, en vez de engendrar en mí un escepticismo desolador, me daba cada
vez más fe en la inteligencia humana y más esperanza alcanzar alguna vez un
rayo de la Verdad. (Recuerdos 104-05)
I fell in love with the latest I read, thinking today true what was absurd
yesterday a devouring anxiety consumed me to clarify the eternal problems
I felt hit by some ideas in others, and this continual to and fro, instead of
creating in me a desolating skepticism, gave me more faith in human
intelligence and more hope to reach some time a ray of Truth.
This respect for individual intelligence and, hence, conscience was to continue the rest of his
life.
The first noticeable element in these teenage conversions is the combination of the
emotional and philosophical. These texts and their lives show that both Unamuno and
Newman feel certain of this combination in their change or growth: With Newman, it is a
loving relationship with Jesus as his personal Lord and Savior, and also a conversion to God
who manifests Himself in a definite creed or objective revelation. Moreover, the very
doctrine of final perseverance is understood as such, that is, a doctrine, an objective
teaching to be believed in. In fact, Newman referred explicitly to a ―divine source‖ being
necessary for the validity of a doctrine. Hence, the certitude of belief is not based on the
certitude itself, but rather on the ―definite creed‖ which itself supposes a divine source.
Therefore, the reason behind his conversion was not the strength of emotional certitude but
rather the fact of divine revelation as understood by John Henry. Just as with Unamuno, it
was not the personal emotion of tears or the will to learn, but rather the conviction of the
valor of each person‘s mind.
Applying this distinction to conscience, we may deduce that conscience for Newman and
Unamuno in these changes is not derogatory about their previous superstitious and religious
convictions. Rather conscience finds an objective reason for conversion, and hence changes.
It was the same search for truth and meaning that spurred in both men a personal love for
truth and later an understanding of religion in both as part of this affection. So we see that,
for Newman and Unamuno, the same conscience that found truth was prepared to receive
further insight. Nature who gives us a conscience as part of our being also gives us the
possibility of knowing truth constantly better. In this sense, Newman later would write that
conscience is a messenger from God both ―in nature and in grace‖ (Difficulties 248) and ―to
live is to change, and to be perfect is to have changed often‖ (Development 40).
A second characteristic of this conversion was Newman's understanding of final
perseverance and Unamuno's thoughts on ―holy trust.‖
On the one hand, Newman asserts the consciousness of his inward conversion and certainty
that it would last until the next life with his election by God to eternal glory (Apologia 16).
In Unamuno's case, one of his first writings ―¡Pistis y no gnosis!‖ likewise argues in favor of
an idealistic final Christian hope linked to a moral commitment. Drawing on the historical
phenomenon of the early Christians, Unamuno draws the conclusion that their hope in the
second coming of Christ was a hope in the future, where the person and life of Jesus was
the guide for their lives:
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